Yeah I suck, I know. It’s been said a billion times the last few months but I just have not had the time to be able to sit down and blog. The writing part I can do on my phone in the early mornings on my way to teach, but finding the time to email it, edit it on the computer and add pictures is not something I’m able to do at my new job. So, I again am really sorry and also know that it SUCKS for me, too. I am not giving up! If you want to see what I’m doing on the daily, follow me on Instagram (@artificiallybalanced)! 🙂
So I still need to write my review of my boss’ awesome 9-course dinner for the launch of her book last month, Musical Pairings. And I will! I also need to write about my amazing trip to COSTA FRICKEN RICA that I just got back from late Monday night. It’s coming, I swear. For now, a brief update will have to do. In a few short words; Costa Rica was beyond amazing. I went with John and his family for his sister’s wedding and I have a hole in my heart from the extreme let down of coming back to NY/America in general. Once I show you the pictures and describe how wonderful the people that live there are, you’ll be booking a trip in a second!
Secondly, before I left I had 3 long training runs for the NYC Marathon that all went terrible. They went terrible before I even did them which is how I know I am making the right decision- for ME- to not run it. I am technically deferring my entry until next year where I will have to revisit the topic and decide if running a full marathon is REALLY something I want to do. I am over beating myself up over it, because I feel 100% sure I am making the right decision. My heart hasn’t been in running at all this year, and that’s because of my love for teaching Spin. Sure, some bloggers (or just some people) can teach a ton of classes and still train for a marathon, but I am not one of them. I want to have a life. I want to teach my Sunday morning spin classes and not forfeit it for the sake of long runs that I dread and can’t finish. For the record, I attempted a 14 and 15 miler and couldn’t get past 13 for either. The wonderful Andrea has been so so supportive of me through this decision and never passed an ounce of judgement which is why I love her so! 🙂 At the end of the day, I have to remember that it doesn’t matter what people think of my decision. Am I giving up? Sure. Am I happy that I am not running the 2014 NYC Marathon? Yes. So that’s all that matters. Maybe 2015 will have different circumstances, but teaching spin is my passion and I am not cutting back on it to train for a race that my heart isn’t in. Full marathons are not for everyone and I fully accept that. I LOVE half marathons and have a few fall races on deck that I fell in love with last year, so I will continue to train for them but my body is used to the distance after 7 of them. The training is not insane the way a full schedule is. I can run 8-9 miles and teach right after (and stuff myself with brunch seconds after) or the day before a class and be okay. And again the most important part: I don’t WANT to run one this year, or maybe ever. And that’s okay. 🙂 Also, the NYC Marathon isn’t like Boston where you have to qualify with a time. My chance to run it will be there. I live here, so I am able to do their 9+1 program (which is what I did last year).
That’s where my head and heart are and I feel good about this. The fact that I was able to say yes to an invitation to go out on Saturday night with old friends from Chanel and not have to decline because of training is amazing. Don’t be afraid to make decisions based on what you truly want. Haters gonna hate.
Have you ever made a decision to drop out of a race not due to injury? More importantly- have you ever been to Costa Rica???? 🙂