2013 Recap- Obvi.

I’m a complete sucker for all things recapped and end of the year recaps make me giddy. I never said I was cool, okay? So here are my top 10 favorite moments/events/accomplishments of my 2013, not in any particular order because I don’t wanna make one memory feel inferior to another memory. Aren’t I sweet? PS this is going to be a long post with a lot of pictures of me. Feel free to stop reading right here.

I’ll start with a short recap of my workouts. I use DailyMile to log my miles but I also use my iPhone notes to recap every day of the year with what workout I did including rest days. I will probably seriously do this forever, because I enjoy it. Just like logging my food every day on MyFitnessPal, it’s not even entirely about weight loss these days. I can look up any day in the past 3.5 years and instantly be taken back to that day. It’s not just about the food or the workout for that particular day, it’s the memories that came along with the rest of that day. Does that make sense? Anyways, without further ado, here we go.

Running- 572 miles

Spin- 35 classes, including teaching 8 of them πŸ™‚

Yoga- 6 (um, woops)

Strength training/weights- 41 sessions

2014 fitness goals: run a lot more miles than that. A.k.a BE MORE CONSISTENT. Less excuses, Jen, less excuses. Stop being lazy and run. A tentative goal I just decided on after reading this is that I want to run 2014K in 2014. That equates to 1,251.4 miles. Since there’s no way in hell I could run 2000 miles in a year without breaking my legs, I will shoot for the kilometer version of 2014. With marathon training starting in the summer, I can definitely do this. Being more consistent will likely result in me getting a little faster, too. I want toΒ Spin more, or more specifically teach more! I am loving teaching so much. I NEED TO YOGA MORE. My God, 6 classes over 12 months?! Pathetic. I am aiming to at least double that number, but hopefully a lot more. With strength training I really surprised myself. Didn’t think I had really done 41 sessions of it, but that was also counting very short 8-10 minute arm workouts which why would they not count? Just a simple goal to strengthen myself even more in the new year.

Top 13: (not in order of favorites)

1.Β Running my 1st half marathon with my best friend.

The months of training together every weekend was the best part. Achieving a hard goal with someone I love so much was one of the best feelings ever. I love this girl with all my heart.

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2. Falling even more in love with my Johnny.Β 

We strengthened our relationship so much this year. We did a ton of fun things together, including so many comedy shows I can’t even remember. We really made sure we made time for each other. He reminds me to think positively every day and makes me laugh even when I’m so mad at him that I want to punch him. πŸ™‚ I can’t wait to see what 2014 brings us! And no, that will not be a baby.

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3. Being in Women’s Health for my weight loss story.

Basically no words for how amazing it was to be chosen for it, have a photo shoot for it, and see my mug all over a magazine πŸ˜‰ It brought me a TON of views to my blog and I love all of the comments I receive telling me they found my blog because of my article!

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4. Deciding, at the very last minute, to complete NYRR’s 9+1 program to qualify for the 2014 NYC Marathonand actually completing it, despite having an injury 3 days before my final race.

1st race of 9.. Percy Sutton Harlem 5K
1st race of 9.. Percy Sutton Harlem 5K
2/9- 4 mile race for autism
2/9- 4 mile race for autism
3 of 9- Bronx 10 miler
3 of 9- Bronx 10 miler
4 of 9- Grete Gallop 1/2 Marathon (2nd half marathon!)
4 of 9- Grete Gallop 1/2 Marathon (2nd half marathon!)
5 of 9- Staten Island 1/2 marathon where I had a HUGE PR!
5 of 9- Staten Island 1/2 marathon where I had a HUGE PR!
6 of 9- Poland Spring 5 Miler
6 of 9- Poland Spring 5 Miler
Fulfilling my volunteer credit at the marathon expo
Fulfilling my volunteer credit at the marathon expo

(Sadly I have no selfies or anything from race 7 and 8 but they happened, obvi)

And the final race:

9 of 9- Ted Corbitt 15K
9 of 9- Ted Corbitt 15K

4 months of training and races, a wonderful volunteer day, and a lot of pizza later and I am qualified for the 2014 NYC Marathon. One of my top 3 proudest achievements.

5. Watching one of my greatest friends get married.Β 

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I just re-read that post and teared up. She is due with her first baby this March and I am so excited to meet the little guy. Love you Frach!

6. Really appreciating the real friends I have, even though distance separates some of us.

I got to see most of the people that are truly my real friends at least once this year and it was great! It’s been really hard to find real friends in NYC. I’m lucky enough to have Brenda and John here but it’s proven difficult to find other people that I have things in common with and who want to build a real relationship. It’s tough! But I’ve heard it all my life that it gets harder to make friends as you get older. The few new people I became close with I am thankful for, though. And my brother is one of my closest friends which I never thought would happen! I love him to death and although we are really different, we’re still getting closer as we get older. I really hope 2014 will bless me with at least one new good friend that actually likes to do the things I like to do! When you stop partying to better your life, like I did, you see who sticks around and sadly I did lose some people. Their loss.

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7. Eating so much good food and developing a better relationship with it.

2011 and 2012 I was dealing with a horrible eating disorder, which if you’ve read my blog for long enough you know all about. After losing 110 pounds, I still thought I needed to lose a lot more and since my body was already at a super healthy (and borderline underweight) size, I had to nearly starve myself and work out for hours a day to keep losing weight. I looked terrible, lost hair, my period, etc. It was a time period more imprisoning than being overweight. Once I finally got help and started to eat more, I went way overboard and started binge eating for months and months. I gained weight in all the wrong places because of it and felt so miserable in my skin, once again, until this year. I found a comfortable medium between loving to work out but being okay with resting whenever I want to without feeling insanely guilty and eating what I want. I was in really amazing shape this summer and fall and while I’ve gained a little this month from all the dang sweets, I know that I can get back to feeling great without deprivation or anything extreme. I love to eat healthy, and I am so much happier eating pizza all the time by fitting them into my macros after a few doses of the healthy stuff, of course. If I could marry pizza, I would.

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8. Becoming a Spin teacher!!

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I got certified in March and finally got a part-time position in November. I am excited to see where I can go with this! It’s so much fun creating playlists and seeing the look on my classes faces when they hear a song they love. I also love the look on their face when they really don’t like me during a heavy hill climb. πŸ˜€

9. Finally completing my Associate’s degree.

Not something I talk about too often on here except for mentions of homework here and there, but school is something I have struggled with completing. Not for lack of intelligence but lack of time and money. I graduated high school in 2006 and went right to community college in my town and worked full-time. After 1 year I decided I would wait awhile because I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do and work was more important to me since I had no other choice but to support myself as I moved out of my parents house at 19. I finally decided to go back in 2010 but had to again take my time and take some semesters off, and long story short I am finally done with my Associate’s degree. It’s kind of embarrassing that it took so long, but in the end it’s my life and I have way more work and life experience than most people my age. I’m not sure what my path for school will be from here so just taking it day by day!

10.Β Cooking more and hosting my first Thanksgiving!

I thought at 25 it may be about time to start actually cooking once in awhile and trying recipes. I didn’t cook a lot or anything, but I did make many batches of the best turkey chili ever, a buffalo chicken soup that’s to die for, and I cooked all of our Thanksgiving food! One of my main goals for 2014 is to cook more and not eat out so much. The last 2 months i’ve barely been in my kitchen out of pure laziness.

And there we have it. Another year is gone and another one is on the horizon. I have realized that I am not Type-A enough to have a laundry list of resolutions that I will actually stick to. I think it’s important to constantly want to improve yourself and get more out of life and that’s what I am going to strive for!

I hope you all have an amazing New Years Eve and I want to hear what some of your goals are!!

Random Rambling

Look at me posting twice in one month already! Woo hoo. How was your weekend? Mine was spent at work so… Yeah. I had a lot of school work to do so I didn’t go to a party I wanted to on Saturday night, and I had to mute the Super Bowl until Beyonce did her thang so I could finish a paper, but the important thing is I am really making school a top priority this time around. I did have dinner with one of my amazing friends Erica on Friday night at a tiny wine bar in Hell’s Kitchen called Gallo Nero . I had to sit out of the wine consumption part of dinner since I drank last weekend and my body really didn’t handle it well at all (due to my new medicine, I think) but we had the best time catching up! That girl is just great for the soul πŸ™‚

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Saturday night after work I got some pizza slices and curled up with my date for the night: my big, sexy Accounting book. Too sexy for a picture, really.Β Don’t get too jealous ladies and gents; he is an asshole. He’s confusing and doesn’t like to talk or help at all. Typical.

Inbetween trying to understand journal entries and balance sheets, I watched The Switch on Netflix that I have been dying to see. I loved it! I am a sucker for chick flicks, and completely in love with both Jason Bateman (loved him in Arrested Development) and Jennifer Aniston. Yummmmm. This was my ideal Saturday night. Minus the homework of course πŸ˜‰

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Were you an Arrested Development fan? It’s one of my all time favorite shows and it’s coming back for a season this spring on Netflix! My love for Netflix grows every day.

On a fitness related note: I continue to oversleep and not even hear my 20 alarms I set from 4:45 AM to 6:30 AM. So no work out since last Wednesday, but I am surely well rested and that makes it A LOT easier to eat healthy. Happy to report that my pants are fitting pretty great despite lack of exercise! I’ll be going to spin class tonight though since I finished some homework last night to make sure I could go! Beyonce really inspired me last night. She is SO FIERCE I can hardly handle it.

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Since I had no Super Bowl plans, I saved myself probably 4,000 calories and made some whole wheat pasta with lots of shredded cheddar cheese, a little butter, garlic powder, sea salt, crushed red pepper and jalapenos. No pic but it was SO GOOD. In no way is whole wheat pasta a “cheat” type of food, I just cannot stick to one portion of it so I eat it only when the craving really strikes. Cause I dominated like 1/2 of the box. No shame in my game.

And in my last ramble for the day, I will be eating oatmeal for lunch most days this week because I quite honestly have $7.71 to last me until I get paid this Friday. Last night I bought a few cartons of eggs (only $1.35 per carton at one of my ghetto grocery stores, flippen awesome) bananas and cheese and it will last me the week. Luckily I don’t get bored with food easily! I also have other food I will use up this week, like oatmeal, coconut flour, cocoa powder, enough peanut butter to feed a 3rd world country, etc so for breakfast I switched it up and made a protein PowerCake. This girl has awesome recipes that are really creative!

Dark Chocolate Banana Powercake

  • 2 tbsp coconut flour
  • 2 tbsp Hershey’s dark unsweetened cocoa powder
  • 1 mashed banana
  • 2 packets sweetener of choice
  • 1/2 tsp baking powder
  • 4 egg whites
  • Splash of almond milk

Mix thoroughly and microwave for 4-5 minutes, checking every few seconds after the first 2 minutes. These cakes can overflow your bowl quickly so keep an eye out and just pause the microwave and it will shrink again!

I also made PowerCakes strawberry chia jam for the topping. I used:

1 cup frozen strawberries with 1/4 cup water, microwaved for 2 minutes. Mash up the strawberries with a fork, and add 1.5 tbsp chia seeds and 2 packets sweetener of choice. Mix well and put in the fridge overnight. The chia seeds will absorb the liquid and turn into a jam! I also topped it with coconut oil peanut butter. This was such a great alternative to oatmeal!

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It’s gonna be a busy week that will end in a fun filled weekend! I have a dentist appointment tomorrow and I am thinking I need to fess up to my wisdom teeth pain and try to schedule them to get taken out. I am literally PETRIFIED of surgery and I would almost rather be in pain than have them out. What is your experience with wisdom teeth removal?

Remember me?

Hi, you may remember me as the person who is supposed to actually be writing in this here blog… Well, prepare for a little update that contains some GOOD NEWS! It’s just been a pretty good 2 weeks or so, since I last blogged, so let me fill ya in.

As recommended by my therapist whom I started seeing in December, I also made an appointment with a psychiatrist so that I could have an anti-depressant prescribed to me. I met with him on Thursday January 17th after a particularly horrible week, and directly after a really bad work day. It was a long and intense 80 minute session, I left with a prescription for the only medicine I was willing to try (I have been really against taking any kind of anti-depressant for years.. Me giving in was a huge sign that I was at rock bottom) and Friday morning was my first day on it. I am happy to report that after just 2 weeks, I am feeling a lot more positive, inspired, focused and more like myself. No drastic difference in my personality, just the happier me that I usually am! We will see how the coming months go as this determines if the medicine needs to be given in a larger dose. Another positive side effect… Lack of appetite/less anxiousness about food. This alone has lifted so much weight off my shoulders, I cannot even begin to describe!

I have awesome news that I can’t share for… Well, an undetermined amount of time. No, I am not pregnant. It’s something really cool and awesome but I want to make sure it’s 10738% in order before I announce! πŸ˜‰

Last week I started my online classes and have spent hours each day since (except this past Sunday when I was miserably hungover) studying my little ass off. My business courses are interesting and not at all terrible. Accounting on the other hand? Let’s just say I’ve gotten real intimate with the huge book and googling everything to do with just the basic terms of accounting… And we are only on Chapter 1.

In a nutshell, I am juggling my 40-50 hour work week, 5 online classes and trying to keep up with working out. I hope you can understand my lack of blogging! Speaking of workouts…

I finally am getting back into a groove, since I’ve been VERY unmotivated after my month of sickness. I’ve been eating really well and clean, my pants are feeling loose (YAY!) and I know the next step in the formula for me to have my goal body by June (PRIDE WEEKEND!!!!) is to make my workouts consistent again. One thing I am going to stick to? Running without my GPS apps for awhile. I do not need a visual reminder of how slow I’ve gotten. I went for my first GPS-free run today in years! I’m just going to set time goals when I run, like today was “run for 30 minutes”, until I have my base built again. Even though I hadn’t run in weeks outside, being GPS free and not dwelling on a slow pace made my run feel incredible! Also incredible- wearing shorts on an outdoor run in January πŸ™‚ I followed it up with a 1 mile incline walk on the treadmill holding 7 lb weights, doing random arm exercises during. HOLY sweatfest, for only 15 minutes.

I’m posting from my phone so the pictures I add just attach at the bottom, and I hate it, but I know you want to see a sweaty pic of me, and a bowl of my all-time favorite soup from my favorite restaurant in my hometown. It’s buffalo chicken soup, probably 5000 calories, and I enjoy every one of ’em πŸ˜‰

Miss and love ya’ll! I will try to post more!!

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My morning view on the way to the gym:


Breath-taking. I keep forgetting that it’s just about holiday season (probably because NYC has been having 60-70 degree days and it’s almost mid-November!) and my first one living in NYC! John and I would come to NYC the first weekend in December every year on a bus trip with the awesome women he used to work with (Alicia if you’re reading, I miss you!) and visit all the tourist traps, but the holidays down here are SO BEAUTIFUL!

I’ve been a little obsessed with Pinterest lately. It really is an awesome site if you want motivation and inspiration. I usually look up running and fashion pins, and this picture was so beautiful!

Haha i love that.

I’ve been eating my usuals so no need to bore you with pictures.. oatmeal, egg sandwiches, carrots w/ hummus, apples with peanut butter, (everything with peanut butter), veggies, tuna w/ goat cheese (my newest obsession), salads. Tuesday night I decided to try to roast some of the kale I had. Side note- I bought it instead of lettuce or spinach thinking I could use it for a salad… not so much. But it’s a big bag so I WILL use it, even though I don’t like it. Roasting it caused it to whittle like paper, but it had so much garlic and red pepper flakes that I ate it anyway. Ketchup made it tolerable. I’m using it in an omelet tonight for dinner because I hate wasting food, and it might just end up growing on me! Just not raw.

This week my workouts have been GREAT! I’ve gone hard everyday since Sunday. I’ve ran, elliptical-ed, spun, walked, and strength trained. I’ve been so much better about not stress eating, but I have definitely needed to keep my eating more than I was before the stress eating. I feel less fluffy than I have the last few weeks, but I think it will take a few more to feel back in shape. I’m listening to my body instead of just going by the calories I THINK I should be eating… it just isn’t enough, so I’m trying to ignore the numbers. It’s a hard process to try to convert into intuitive eating, because it definitely has caused me to gain a little bit which I had read was normal as you are learning to listen to your body. I know it will even out, and the stress eating was the biggest culprit. I semi-slipped last night, after I had oatmeal for lunch I wanted it again for dinner because I had a school project and had no time to cook, but I was feeling very stressed and ended up eating a few slices of toast with peanut butter and honey after. That’s my ultimate comfort food apparently. It’s healthy, but having had oatmeal for two meals already I didn’t need more carbs. I didn’t feel sick or even close to full, so I’ll accept that my body needed the energy to compensate for my extra hard workouts, and move on. Done and done πŸ™‚

Speaking of school, I am really at a loss as to what to do from here on out. My major was fashion merchandising, but I changed it to just business administrative after realizing fashion is not really the industry I want to work in. Having a business degree leaves a pretty open door, but I truly don’t want to be a business major anymore either. I have wanted to be a health teacher since before I lost weight and got passionate about health and fitness, but I thought it would be more glamorous and fun to be in fashion. I have changed so much since high school, and I want to help and teach people about healthy living. I want to make people feel hopeful and not alone, and be able to manage and view healthy living in a whole new perspective. Being a health teacher and also personal training/ weight loss coaching on the side is my ultimate dream now. My dilemma is do I continue with the business program and get my associate’s since I can have it by next spring, or do I look into switching majors and probably losing credit for all of the classes I’ve taken thus far? I have to research and make a decision soon because my school work is slacking big time. I come home exhausted and miserable and I can’t put my all into my school work. It really sucks, because I made the Dean’s List the last two semesters. My head and heart are just not in it this semester, but I have made out a list of everything that is due for the rest of the month so I can make sure I know what’s coming and get some work done ahead of time. I can power through this and make the best of it.

I always think about how lucky I am to have great people in my life, but yesterday was one of those days that smacks you in the face with them and tells you that life is awesome because of them. I was feeling pretty down, but it quickly changed after Caitlin gave me a card she saw atΒ  Trader Joe’s and bought for me! Inside she told me that I’m fabulous no matter how I feel, and that she is so glad we’re friends. I cried tears of joy because it was so sweet, and then laughed my ass off because the girl has an obsession with cards and I love it. Her and my other co-worker and great friend Erica wrote me two amazing, empowering emails that really helped and changed the course of my day from shitty to great! I ran a 5K on my lunch break and it felt like summer, but with amazing views of fall trees. It was pretty radical. It’s 2011 and I just brought back ‘radical’, get ready.

So even though life sucks a lot lately because I’m not in the place I want to be school and career wise, I am reminded so often that I have so many things to be happy about. Great friends, great family, legs to run with, a city that is beautiful and never dull, and a lifetime ahead of me to figure my shit out.

Do you count/track calories or are you an intuitive eater?

Have you ever switched majors or career paths?